Today we did what is called a poem imitation. We had to imitate this poem in every way we could besides using all of the actual words:
This Is Just To Say
I have eaten
that were in
you were probably
they were delicious
and so cold.
-- William Carlos Williams
This was my version...
I have questioned
that were in
your black eyes
you had probably
meant to share
you are intriguing
yet so cold
My teacher said to me, "It's ok... it's kind of too abstract... and not enough sensory images. You need to add more..."
Well, I'm sorry I like to write about emotion rather than "the tree is green."
Here is another example that I'm slightly confused about because I've never had this reaction after I read something in class:
*shrug of the shoulders* "Yeah.... ok... pretty good.... Any other volunteers?"
Now it's not that the teacher is unresponsive. Shortly after my apparently pathetic offering, someone else will raise their hand. In my opinion, their work is not much greater than mine, and yet the teacher laughs and praises them with much enjoyment.
I honestly don't get it -- partly because, in my last class, my college level teacher thought I was 100% material. She found my writing extremely creative and poetic, and told me so many times. In contrast, I feel as though I am completely uninteresting to this teacher. I feel as though he thinks I am bottom-rung fish-food as far as the world of writing goes. I also don't understand because, in his syllabus, my teacher wrote, "There is no right or wrong way to be a writer. If it is structured well, and it is creative, you will receive credit." I have never, before these past two weeks, had anyone who found me completely uncreative and boring.
I suppose everyone has a nemesis that can help you be stronger someday.
Something positive -- I have been tutoring for the American Heritage class. So far this week, I have tutored around 14 people.. and it is the most rewarding job I have ever had! I love being able to help students understand the material -- and it isn't boring to me at all. Some may think that hearing 14 - 20 hours a week of the same history may seem monotonous and repetitious, but I have found it interesting and stimulating. I also love being able to see the light come on in students' eyes as they begin to understand more and more what they need to and want to know. It has convinced me that I definitely want to teach.
However, if I can't pass my creative writing class with a more than satisfactory grade....